Resolved

I just can’t believe to finally get the positive response, I longed for, from her. In fact, when she got mad with me four months ago, I had lost the drive to maintain this blog. Her loud and clear message appeared to seal the remaining hole in my illusion. In that post, I even hinted to end my blog just as I put an end to my fantasies and face the realities.

It was unexpected, sort of surprise similar to my reaction when I opened up this blog after some months and realized that my Alexa rank slid to almost 5,000 from unprecedented phenomenal growth reaching to 346,546, the highest rank attained by any of my blogs. Alexa checks traffic on website. It reveals how well your website or blog fare against others in the traffic competition. Ratings start from 1 to 20,000,000 and even beyond. The lower the number, the better your Alexa rating is.

Yes. While she maintained her stand to confine our relationship within the boundary of friendship insisting on a clean and wholesome relationship, she granted my request to freely express what is inside me without fear and reservation. Sort of affirmation in resolving the ambivalence.

It is in this context that I started to revive this blog with a resolve to recapture the unprecedented wave it had experienced before. This blog is a tribute to a woman for successfully touching a soft spot in my being whose impact until now I cannot fully explain. Of all the women I met in my life, yea I have related with, there is only one worth comparing i.e. my beloved wife. I am not saying that the other women I have loved were less significant. I have valued them and treasured our relationship. But the extent of inspiration and challenge, as well as the gentle, albeit imposing or should I say domineering approach of the aforementioned duo makes the distinction. Coupled with their trustworthiness and simplicity of lifestyle that seems to take offense on lavish ways and even praises. I have attempted to find some explanations and elaborate one in my previous blog. But they are still inadequate.

Beyond imagination, without even robbing the love and attention I have for my wife, this woman has inspired me to create this blog. Her ambivalent reactions to my appreciation and admiration have sustained my posts. How long? I don’t know. Just as I can never tell whether I will ever sustain this blog’s phenomenal growth.

Looking back, I treated her just like any other member of our class. Although from the start she already exudes some kind of wits, charms, kindness, gentleness, sweetness and other qualities I admire. It was when I asked her help to facilitate my paper in her hometown that we started our constant communication. Most often, exchanging jokes and wits. We seemed to enjoy the new found friendship. Until due to unguarded recklessness, typically of me (at times), I offended her with my annoying innuendos and bothersome allusions and illusions. Still, she handled that rage with civility and grace which, surprisingly, intensified the pain I felt in the process of resolution and reconciliation.

Thereafter, I become overcautious not to renege on my promise never to hurt her again that way. Although, at times, my naughtiness attempts to test the water because despite the corresponding alienation, I seem to miss those moments when she freely expressed what was inside her. My previous posts and the upcoming ones, with periodic interlude of excerpts culled from my father’s diary, will determine the extent and sustainability of the phenomenal growth of this blog. And, perhaps, to a certain degree, how far our relationship will go based on her only demand – a clean and wholesome one.

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Unexpected, indeed: Thanks to Reddit

I was not expecting hundreds would  join me in treading on unfamiliar terrain.  A day after my post, I was amazed by the twist in viewership of my blog as gleaned from the built- in stat counter. It was unexpected. So I checked my dashboard to see what happened. This message  greeted me.

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Opening the stat site,  I discovered that the number one referrer was Reddit.

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Then, I remember that after my post, I tried to use all the services made available by the WordPress. In fact, when I registered to some services, admittedly I was not completely aware of the benefits I would get. There were times, Reddit would reprimand me for neglecting some rules in submission. When I was about  to choose the subreddit, I tried to encode unfamiliar. But I could not find the word. Instead unexpected was one of those which appeared.

Thus, I click it without expecting something unexpected twist would happen. And it did happen. Thanks for Reddit.

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Wikipedia  has described Reddit  as  a social news and entertainment website where registered users submit content in the form of links or text posts. Users then vote each submission “up” or “down” to rank the post and determine its position on the site’s pages. Content entries are organized by areas of interest called “subreddits”. A blogger named Micah has made a good discussion on how Reddit works and how to use it to grow your business.

In retrospection, the phenomenal growth of  this blog is unexpected, too. It has overtaken my other  blogs. As of this writing, the Alexa rank is 346,546 with 2,830 views. Even its creation was unexpected. Would you ever believe that at my age and status in life, I  venture to blog on love and romance? I have never done this before as shown in the niche of my other blogs. Better still, would you ever believe that I would fall in love with a woman other than my wife. But things happened unexpectedly.

But isn’t this an endearing reality in life? Significant things happened unexpectedly. The birth of Jesus whom Christians believe to be the incarnated God, the prophesied King  and Savior of  the world took place in an unexpected setting- a manger in a little town of Bethlehem. Mind you, the unlikely witness to such glorious event were the shepherds, considered as the lowest and most despised social groups at that time. But it was just the start of controversies unexpected of  long awaited king and messiah. Later, he surrounded himself with disciples who were unschooled and ordinary, disdained  tax collectors and revolutionaries. Some of his associates were dregs  and outcast of  the  society. 

Indeed, as blogger Rachel Held Evans describes, it is unexpected to find God in

     Jesus, who was born as an oppressed minority in an occupied land,
     Jesus who was an immigrant,
     Jesus, who surrounded himself with the poor, the sick, the marginalized and the “untouchables,”
     Jesus who was criticized by the religious for hanging out with sinners,
     Jesus who treated women with dignity and respect,
     Jesus who taught his disciples to love their enemies, to give without expecting anything in return, to overcome evil with love,
     Jesus who suffered,
     Jesus who wept,
     Jesus who – while hanging on a Roman cross – said, “Father forgive them, for they know not what they do.”

Oh what an endearing reality in life. Many things happen the way we never expect them to be.  For as St. Paul was quoted in the Holy Book saying:   God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.make foolish wise.

Keep on following this blog for more unexpected but endearing realities  in life.

Inspiring development

endearing realitiesThe unprecedented  wave  of this blog continues. In less than  a month  after I posted its Alexa rank, the rate has further improved, as well as the blog stats.  From 878,269  to 549,611 globally with 2,875 traffic rank in the Philippines. Alexa checks traffic on website. It  reveals  how  well your website or blog fare against others in the traffic competition.  So far, this is the highest  rank attained by any of my blogs. Surprisingly,  the  newest blog – one which I never intended to create. Neither did it occur even in my wildest dream to discuss love, relationship, and romance. Much more to expose myself to throngs of  netizens on web. I just can’t imagine how awkward it would be when my identity is revealed someday.  For I, long, have resigned or should I say retired from  this stage of  infatuation.

Not until  this mysterious lady rekindled my passion and  inspired me to create this blog. I was even amused on  how I came up with the title. I consider her mysterious because she puzzles me no end. She sustains her  ambivalence. Oftentimes, so near yet so far. Just when I was about to seize her elusiveness, she easily untangles herself from the trap. At times, I consider her no longer mortal and call her an angel to her delight, I presume, for that would keep her safe from my wooing.

While Alexa’s  accuracy has been contested by critics, I won’t join the fray . Suffice it for me to witness and enjoy how the rankings of my blogs improve, as I  keep the challenge to myself and make my own blogs compete  among themselves. That’s how shallow my happiness is.

But what makes this inspiring development more significant is its contagious effect to my other blogs. Many of them have dramatically improved their rankings. In fact, two blogs have also broken  the 1,000,000 ceiling I set for my blogs. Even my blog on spirituality has soared to heights.  All because of the inspiration and challenge brought about  by  the endearing realities to my other blogs which compel me to update some of them.

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Oh how I wish that this inspiring development  will be replicated in my relationship with this mysterious lady. I wish my ranking will dramatically improve as I compete with persons, places, tasks, thoughts and emotions creating traffic daily in her mind and heart. For I know each has already established  respective place in her being. I do not even know whether there is still a remaining space for me to fit in to join the competition.  For she exhibits a mindset  and value system which  is well entrenched that I find it difficult to infiltrate. She is more particular with what  people think than what she wants or wishes to do , as expected in a married woman.  She appears to sacrifice self interest or friendship just to keep up with the demands of norm and tradition. So much so that even our personal talk has been very limited lest we disabuse people’s  mind.

 

Oh how I wish  I can read your mind,  dear mysterious lady,  in order for me  to know my  ranking in the traffic competition within your heart and mind . But I can’t. However, I seem to feel the beatings of your heart. Although its sound is not so  audible  which  refrains me from assuming that I am fortunate enough to be responsible for  any of those heartbeats.

Entangled, again, in the power of love

The phenomenal development of this blog is unprecedented. In so short a time it has overtaken my other blogs in terms of Alexa rank and Technorati. In less than two months without  even a dozen posts, the Alexa rank is 878,269 while the Technorati rank is 40715, as of this post.

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Alexa is a quick and easy way to estimate how popular your site is compared to other sites. It show that how popular your website or blog is in term of Traffic. Ratings start from 1 to 20,000,000 and even beyond. The lower the number, the better your Alexa rating is.

Technorati, on the other hand, is a directory and ranking-tool for blogs. Ranking on Technorati is advantageous to blog in terms of big boost in traffic and general credibility. Technorati Rank is a site’s rank among the Technorati Authority of all sites. 1 is the highest rank. Technorati also provides a ranking of sites by authority, overall and within categories.  Authority is on a scale of 0-1000. In this ranking system, the higher the number, the better.

While there have been expressed reservations and criticisms on their accuracy, some continue to believe that the ranking inevitably influences the marketability of the blog,  provides inspiration to bloggers,  and ( for the entrepreneur minded) attracts the advertisers.

Likewise, the blog has gained 714  hits and hundreds of visitors from various countries, as  this  post is being drafted.  Once published, the number will certainly increase.

ardei mazaPersonally, I cannot help but feel awed by this development and attribute this to the power of love. I have tried creating and maintaining blogs on various niche – politics, spirituality, development, activism, social action, voluntarism inherent in my conviction and position. But some could not reach the less than a million rank. While it is true that my other blogs succeeded to reach better rank than the Endearing Realities do, they  took  longer period with constant posts to sustain respective ranks. However, when I aimlessly venture on love story, I seem to find meaning in what I do, being entangled again in the power of love.

This blog is a tribute to a woman for successfully touching a soft spot in my being whose impact until now I cannot fully explain. Of all the women I met in my life, yea I have related with, there is only one worth comparing i.e. my beloved wife. I am not saying that the other women I have loved were less significant. I have valued them and treasured our relationship. But the extent of inspiration and challenge, as well as the gentle, albeit imposing or should I say domineering approach of the aforementioned duo makes the distinction. Coupled with their trustworthiness and simplicity of lifestyle that seems to take offense on lavish ways and even praises. I have attempted to find some explanations  and elaborate one in my previous blog. But they are still inadequate.

Beyond imagination, without even robbing the love and attention I have for my wife, this woman has inspired me to create this blog. Her ambivalent reactions to my appreciation and admiration have sustained my posts. How long? I don’t know. Just as I can never tell whether I will ever sustain this blog’s phenomenal growth.

Looking back, I treated her just like any other member of our class. Although from the start she already exudes some kind of wits, charms, kindness, gentleness, sweetness and other qualities I admire. It was when I asked her help to facilitate my paper in her hometown that we started our constant communication. Most often, exchanging jokes and wits. We seemed to enjoy the new found friendship. Until due to unguarded recklessness, typically of me (at times), I offended her with my annoying innuendos and bothersome allusions and illusions. Still, she handled that rage with civility and grace which, surprisingly, intensified the pain I felt in the process of resolution and reconciliation.

Thereafter, I become overcautious not to renege on my promise never to hurt her again that way. Although, at times, my naughtiness attempts to test the water because despite the corresponding alienation, I seem to miss those moments when she freely expressed what was inside her. My previous posts and the upcoming ones, with periodic interlude of excerpts culled  from my father’s diary, will determine the extent and sustainability of the phenomenal growth of this blog. And, perhaps, to a certain degree, how far our relationship will go based on her only demand – a clean and wholesome one. Expect more posts  as I find myself being entangled, again, in the power of love.